Insanity

Torture. It's what I do to myself. No one does it better. I drive myself crazy with my out of control thoughts. I don't know where they come from. I can't explain it. I make myself sick with my emotions. I doubt it all. I cry for pain that isn't even real. I cry for a love that is lost when it is still there firmly in my grasp. I am haunted by a face. I am haunted by a name. I am haunted by memories that are not of my own. By pictures that I am not in. How long will this last? Where is this energy coming from? Please just go away.